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Rusty’s Reading List 2018

August 27, 2018
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Spoken WordRevolutionRedux

A book of spoken word poetry seems like a contradiction in terms… and it is. A GOOD book of spoken word poetry shows that even if meant to be performed, strong poetry still stands on its own not eh page, and by that standard, this is certainly a good book of spoken word poetry. There is some great stuff in here (Gregory Corso stands out), mixed in with some editorializing that is hit and miss. (Including a strange little scrap between Jack Foley and Paula Friedrich that comes across more like a social media spat than criticism.
Still, this book was a lot better than its packaging would have led me to believe.

Thanks to Pearl Pirie who gave it to me.

 

Books Read in 2018

The Spoken Word Revolution Redux – ed/ by Mark Eleveld
It’s still winter – rob mclennan
Regeneration Machine – Joe Denham
Life after Cancer Treatment – Canadian Cancer Society
Diversions – George Murray
Geist #107
Akira Collection 2 – Katsuhiro Otomo
Akira Collection 1 – Katsuhiro Otomo
Age of Bronze: A Thousand Ships – Eric Shanower
Secret Path – Good Downie & Jeff Lemire
Absolute Sandman Vol. 4 – Neil Gaiman and others
Absolute Sandman Vol. 3 – Neil Gaiman and others
ARC Poetry Magazine #85
Absolute Sandman Vol. 2 – Neil Gaiman and others
The Collected Poems of William Hawkins – William Hawkins
Touch the Donkey #16
The New Quarterly #144
Absolute Sandman Vol. 1 – Neil Gaiman and others
Autonomous – Annalee Newitz
The Malahat Review #200
Fables Vol. 5 – The Mean Seasons (Willingham / Buckingham / Leialoha / Akina / Palmiotti)
Fables Vol. 4 – March of the Wooden Soldiers (Willingham / Buckingham / Hamilton / Leioloha / Russell)
Fables Vol. 3 – Storybook Love (Willingham / Buckingham / Leialoha)
Fables Vol. 2 – Animal Farm (Willingham / Buckingham / Leialoha)
Fables Vol. 1 – Legends in Exile (Willingham / Medina / Leiaoha / Hamilton)


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Rusty’s Reading List 2018

August 12, 2018
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It may seem odd to read a chapbook called ‘It’s still winter’ in August, but hey, that’s just the way it is.

I have said before that while I really like rob, I don’t always ‘get’ his poetry. I don’t mean it is bad – it is absolutely not – I just mean I can’t find my way in.

I mention that because this chapbook it the exact opposite of that. I FELT the words right from the first poem and all the way through. The first poem (‘My daughter is in New York City’) captured a feeling and I never lost it. This book also happens to have my favourite rob poem that I have ever read (though I have read it before), ‘Sentences my mother used’.

Thanks for th e book, rob. It was very good. Well done.

 

Books Read in 2018

It’s still winter – rob mclennan
Regeneration Machine – Joe Denham
Life after Cancer Treatment – Canadian Cancer Society
Diversions – George Murray
Geist #107
Akira Collection 2 – Katsuhiro Otomo
Akira Collection 1 – Katsuhiro Otomo
Age of Bronze: A Thousand Ships – Eric Shanower
Secret Path – Good Downie & Jeff Lemire
Absolute Sandman Vol. 4 – Neil Gaiman and others
Absolute Sandman Vol. 3 – Neil Gaiman and others
ARC Poetry Magazine #85
Absolute Sandman Vol. 2 – Neil Gaiman and others
The Collected Poems of William Hawkins – William Hawkins
Touch the Donkey #16
The New Quarterly #144
Absolute Sandman Vol. 1 – Neil Gaiman and others
Autonomous – Annalee Newitz
The Malahat Review #200
Fables Vol. 5 – The Mean Seasons (Willingham / Buckingham / Leialoha / Akina / Palmiotti)
Fables Vol. 4 – March of the Wooden Soldiers (Willingham / Buckingham / Hamilton / Leioloha / Russell)
Fables Vol. 3 – Storybook Love (Willingham / Buckingham / Leialoha)
Fables Vol. 2 – Animal Farm (Willingham / Buckingham / Leialoha)
Fables Vol. 1 – Legends in Exile (Willingham / Medina / Leiaoha / Hamilton)


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Rusty’s Reading List 2018

August 4, 2018
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I feel like no matter what I say here, I won’t be doing the book justice. First off, calling it a book is a bit misleading because while it IS a book, in all sense of the word, it is also a single poem. What we have is a poetic stream of consciousness (almost) as Joe tries to make sense out of the death of a friend who died in fairly specific circumstances.
Denham travels around the subject quite a bit, because it is a very tough subject, and I am not sure he ever gets the answers he is seeking, but as a witness along the way the insights and art ore beautiful and moving.

Well done.

 

Books Read in 2018

Regeneration Machine – Joe Denham
Life after Cancer Treatment – Canadian Cancer Society
Diversions – George Murray
Geist #107
Akira Collection 2 – Katsuhiro Otomo
Akira Collection 1 – Katsuhiro Otomo
Age of Bronze: A Thousand Ships – Eric Shanower
Secret Path – Good Downie & Jeff Lemire
Absolute Sandman Vol. 4 – Neil Gaiman and others
Absolute Sandman Vol. 3 – Neil Gaiman and others
ARC Poetry Magazine #85
Absolute Sandman Vol. 2 – Neil Gaiman and others
The Collected Poems of William Hawkins – William Hawkins
Touch the Donkey #16
The New Quarterly #144
Absolute Sandman Vol. 1 – Neil Gaiman and others
Autonomous – Annalee Newitz
The Malahat Review #200
Fables Vol. 5 – The Mean Seasons (Willingham / Buckingham / Leialoha / Akina / Palmiotti)
Fables Vol. 4 – March of the Wooden Soldiers (Willingham / Buckingham / Hamilton / Leioloha / Russell)
Fables Vol. 3 – Storybook Love (Willingham / Buckingham / Leialoha)
Fables Vol. 2 – Animal Farm (Willingham / Buckingham / Leialoha)
Fables Vol. 1 – Legends in Exile (Willingham / Medina / Leiaoha / Hamilton)


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Rusty’s Reading List 2018

August 4, 2018
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Yeah, so this one is a bit different, but it is still a book I read so…

This is a book provided by the Canadian Cancer Society for people dealing with life after cancer treatment. That is getting further removed for me, but it never really goes away. I am really glad I read this if for nothing more than validation.

Let me explain something I had (am having?) trouble with, that I now understand isn’t unique to me. While I was having treatment, I felt supported by people all around me. They sympathized, maybe empathized, and gave me the emotional and practical support I needed.
Then treatment ended. At first everyone seemed to understand that I would still be tired, so they gave me slack for that, but they also thought I should be incredibly happy.
I wasn’t, and they couldn’t understand why. Neither could I.
Very quickly people started to act as if the cancer was something that HAD happened to me and that I had gotten past it. I didn’t feel that way. I still don’t.
One day at work, when talking to a supportive co-worker, I said something about having cancer (in passing – it was pertinent to the conversation), and he CORRECTED me. He said, “You HAD cancer.”
Now, out of context that seems horrible, but at the time I knew exactly what he was trying to say. He was trying to be positive. He knew I was in monitoring to see if there were any lingering cancer cells waiting to re-emerge (so far, so good), and he was trying to assert that there was none. Be positive and visualize, I guess.
I took it as  a complete minimization of what I was still going through. (Thankfully I internalized it, as I would have felt bad at lashing out at someone who had nothing but good intentions there.)

For anyone reading this, be aware: I am not ‘over it’. Is the worst past? I certainly hope so. There is  only (‘only’…) a 30% recurrence rate (and I am going for a CT scan next Friday). I don’t need people to worry about my physical health.
What I need is for people to understand that this has changed me… possibly forever. All of this (combined with the multiple lawsuits etc.) has led me to depression, but even when I am feeling good, cancer still does not feel like something I ‘got past’. It is part of me, even if that is no longer physically true. (Crossing fingers.)

This is especially important this week, because going for that scan reminds me of my mortality in the worst way. I am not okay, but I am doing my best.

 

Books Read in 2018

Life after Cancer Treatment – Canadian Cancer Society
Diversions – George Murray
Geist #107
Akira Collection 2 – Katsuhiro Otomo
Akira Collection 1 – Katsuhiro Otomo
Age of Bronze: A Thousand Ships – Eric Shanower
Secret Path – Good Downie & Jeff Lemire
Absolute Sandman Vol. 4 – Neil Gaiman and others
Absolute Sandman Vol. 3 – Neil Gaiman and others
ARC Poetry Magazine #85
Absolute Sandman Vol. 2 – Neil Gaiman and others
The Collected Poems of William Hawkins – William Hawkins
Touch the Donkey #16
The New Quarterly #144
Absolute Sandman Vol. 1 – Neil Gaiman and others
Autonomous – Annalee Newitz
The Malahat Review #200
Fables Vol. 5 – The Mean Seasons (Willingham / Buckingham / Leialoha / Akina / Palmiotti)
Fables Vol. 4 – March of the Wooden Soldiers (Willingham / Buckingham / Hamilton / Leioloha / Russell)
Fables Vol. 3 – Storybook Love (Willingham / Buckingham / Leialoha)
Fables Vol. 2 – Animal Farm (Willingham / Buckingham / Leialoha)
Fables Vol. 1 – Legends in Exile (Willingham / Medina / Leiaoha / Hamilton)


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